A Story About A Woman-To-Be
A
woman-to-be sits there, in front of a boy and a girl. The boy used to be the
woman-to-be’s lover. They separated because the woman-to-be needs a man, or at
least a man-to-be, not just a boy. Sound’s very selfish, especially when
everybody (including the woman-to-be) can see that the boy still loves her more
than anyone else. Yet, that was not a one day decision, so many thoughts, so
many sleepless nights, so many tears, and so many things had happen to that
woman-to-be. From the almost-sister-in-law’s anger to the mom and dad’s
questions about “is this boy will be your future husband?”
Last
night, this woman-to-be was talking to the girl. “I’m the boy’s girlfriend!” said
the girl, loud and clear. No one would think this is weird, considering that
the woman-to-be and the boy had already split up, months ago. But what people
not know was that this boy was never stop saying “I love you”, never stop
asking her to come back to him, never stop calling her “Onya” and never even
wants to change “aku-kamu” to “gue-elo” to the woman-to-be. If he had this girl
as his lover, why should he do that??
That
day, the girl tells many stories about the boy. But none of the stories
pictured the boy that the woman-to-be had ever known. It was a totally
different person! The boy that this girl tells about is a boy that craps many
girls, bajingan. The boy that the
woman-to-be known for 6 years is a never complaints-loyal-sweet-preety boy who
was never eager to see putih-langsing-modis
lady rather than “si chubby cantik”
(that’s how he called the woman-to-be).
Tonight,
the woman-to-be forces to hear the truth, from the mouth of the boy, and right
in front of the girl. Couple hours before that, the boy is saying to the
woman-to-be that all he had done is only because he can not live without her.
Having the girl is a one way ticket to forget the woman-to-be. The woman-to-be
(who thinks about others more than herself) had said something crazy that very
moment: “If that’s the case, come back with me, release the girl. Don’t hurt
her this much!”
=================
“Now,
tell me. How had this happen?” ask the woman-to-be. She wants to know how the
pretty boy she had known for years has changed into a selfish monster.
“Ya gitulah. Pokonya kejadiannya gimana say?”
ask the girl.
“Waktu balik dari Retro itu yah” said the
boy.
“Iyah, jadi jadiannya jam berapa say? Jam 3
pagi!” said the girl.
The
woman-to-be almost puked!! They told this story while laughing together. Where
were their brains? Where were their hearts? Few hours ago that boy swore that
he loves the woman-to-be more than anyone else. That girl also knows for sure
that this woman-to-be loves the boy. Should they tell that story in front of
her that way? They know that those weren’t the story she needed to know, *emang penting apa??
If
just the woman-to-be is a (little) girl, she would also told those ‘sweet
stories’, and say something like “do you remember when you take me home after
we had dinner together couple of days ago? Turns out that nobody’s home and we
make out that night? Kamu ngga ceritain
itu ke dia, say?” It’s not a fake story anyway, and it happens many times,
when actually the boy belongs to the girl.
But
of course once more, this is a woman-to-be, she’s not a girl. This woman-to-be
thinks about other people’s feeling than herself. She knows that if she told
those stories, it would hurt the girl a lot, and she doesn’t want to do that.
And
so, it goes all night long. It’s a fast conversation, probably just about 15 to
20 minutes. But the facts that been told that time, destroys all the facts for
the whole 6 years (including 5 years of togetherness between the boy and the
woman-to-be).
“Jadi, selama sama gue, lo sama siapa aja?”
ask the woman to be.
“Nggak. Ngg.. sama beberapa” said the boy
“Beberapa? Siapa aja? Kapan?” the
woman-to-be was so shocked!
“Kayanya siapa dan kapan ngga perlu disebutin kan?” said the boy, easily..
yah, pokonya beberapa, udah cukup menjawab
Destroy,
damaged, hurt, the woman-to-be felt like losing her grip. Her eyes seeking a
truth, through the eyes of the boy. She waited the boy to say “I’m sorry, this
whole thing is a lie. I’m gonna leave you now, girl, cause I only love this
woman.” But it never happened.
A
huge sad fact, the woman-to-be had been fooled for so long, for many years. But
that’s not the worst. The worst is the way she knew this fact. There she was;
in front of her is the boy (who always says he adores her) with this girl, and
they’re laughing at her!
This
girl, knowing that the boy –his boyfriend right now- is hurting many people,
including the woman-to-be just right in front of her. But she’s thinking and
acting like some kinda winner that had just won this boy. She’s laughing at
this woman-to-be, saying “poor you, been fooled for so long.”
The
girl even said “Ya aku sih terserah kamu,
kalo kamu masih mo terusin, yah aku..”
“Stop,
right there!” The woman-to-be can’t help it, she’s full with anger.
“Gue kesini bukan buat itu, bukan buat denger
elo mo pilih dia atau gue. Buat gue, klopun lo pilih gue, gue ngga akan bangga!”
she screams, she pointed her finger to the boy, her heart was broken into
pieces.
Finally,
she chooses to left. “I think I’d better go.” The boy and the girl nod their
head, as if they hate to see the woman-to-be as much as she hated them. The
boy, who is for at least 5 years always says I love you to this woman-to-be, is
not even say I’m sorry, relax yourself first, or should I accompany you. None.
The
woman-to-be screams inside the taxi. “God.. why did You do this to me? I always
believe that You give problems which not heavier that my strengths to resolve
it. But this time, it’s unbelievable. It is way too painful and it happens when
I had already got so many problems.”
The
woman-to-be called her best friend (you are the best, Mel!) and cries everything
to her. It was a loud and long cry on the taxi. But that’s all. When she got
home, no more tears, she sleeps very tight, no nightmares, and wakes up in a
fresh condition.
How
come? How can this woman-to-be get her strength back? She’s no super woman.
She’s fragile and she’s definitely broken. But this woman-to-be truly believes
that it was only the boy who is fake, not the love. Even with the sad fact that
he’s cheating on her for years, and also the fact that he chooses the girl this
time, “I know you love me, boy!”
And
about a boy who is faking, the woman-to-be was not that naïve. She knows a lot
about boys, yeah.. it’s not that surprising actually. Boys will be boys.
Affairs, even a husband or a father is able to do that. Boyfriend’s cheating is
nothing special, standard.
The woman-to-be is
also not such an innocent girl. She have also played with many boys. The
different is, she’s not some psycho hypocrite saying “You’re the only one I
adore, I can’t live without you. I don’t need anyone else in my life. I’d
rather die than live without you,” as the boy did. She’s acting naturally,
showing that she is naughty but she’s not evil. She likes flirting, but keeps
love as the first thing in life.
